Happy New Year

Well it is now 2005 and I start on the downside of 50 this year. Depressing thought. On the other hand, it is liberating. I don't feel like I have to please anyone but me. Rather self-centered, but then maybe I think I deserve it. I don't have anyone else to really worry about except mom and she's a class unto herself. I hope this zoo thing works out. Who knows, maybe it will be my key to fame and fortune.

Christmas was obscene with all the gifts. Took mom and me two hours, TWO!!!, to open all the gifts. We've always gone overboard at Christmas. It was Daddy's favorite holiday and I can still see him with his smile and gentle eyes watching us open gifts. How I miss him.

I stayed with mom until Wednesday when I returned to Rochester. I sure missed my kitties. Lauren takes good care of them, but she's very high maintence and I'd rather hire someone to watch them. Lauren is very smothering and bugs the hell out of me most of the time. I'm a lot more impatient than I used to be. Must come with age.

Looks like this year there will be no big vacation unless I go up to Georgian Bay for a long weekend. If I go after Labor Day, the rates should go down. I'd just like to go up and contemplate my navel for a few days and look out over the water. I *have* to find a new place to live. There are some really seedy types living in the complex and they are really scary. Who knows, maybe I can find a house to rent/buy. Something that's MINE. Then I can get the boys a little sister, maybe.